restart

you are at a point in life, whence things do not make that common a sense, somehow.
people have dreams.
the impact they have on a person is dramatic.
when dreams are broken or remain unfulfilled, one may notice that the biological compass starts glitching and dysfunction.
it is that feeling of being lost. confusion emerges as a thick blanket of clouds.
suddenly things tend to be clear only grouped or in clusters. there's "islands" of conscious images that seem clear. yet, focusing on them perplexes you the more.
deep down you don't know what you want, even when you're asked, specifically, but from the top of you head, you feel to know exactly. yet you keep searching into your heart. answers come and go... answers that raise other questions; questions that need other answers... a long chain... a big circle.
half the things you do, condemn you. you are told. you want not to chose, but there's a lot of things in front of you that claim two choices each.
why does this happen? why do you find yourself with a list of mistakes in hand, while you do not feel such.
how can people all of a sudden, find themselves in such situations?
restart.
your dreams are broken. they're unfulfilled.
your soul craves to see them fulfilled. your whole being, on the deepest subconscious level, wants to see them fulfilled, patched, put together.
subconsciously, when things seem to suffer failure, when it feels it has not been fulfilling; when you look back and you wonder... when you remember the vivid image of your future-self that your soul projected to your conscious level some time ago, a year, two, ten, twenty... you see failure, you see lack of accomplishment. your subconscious tries to regroup; restart from back whence the plans were laid in front of your spirit, when the images first emerged.
restart...
you are living your life in different plans, different dimensions.
you only have restarted.
you will understand this at precisely... when you find yourself in such a situation.
good luck with your choice.